Unaccustomed Earth - Jhumpa Lahiri [48]
“Let me guess. You’re writing for The New York Times,” Mr. Nagle said.
“Actually, I work for a medical journal.”
“Is that right? I didn’t think you were interested in the sciences.”
He hadn’t been. He’d wanted to be a journalist, it was true. He had loved working on the eight-page weekly paper, loved going with Mr. Nagle and the rest of the editorial staff to the offices of the local town paper once a week to do the layout. He remembered sitting in the library, thinking up story ideas, interviewing members of the faculty, and the famous people who sometimes came to Langford to speak at assemblies. Taking an active, reporter’s interest in the life of the school had helped him to endure the fact that he hated it there. But he knew that journalism wasn’t an option as a career, that his parents would never indulge such thinking. It was the one battle he hadn’t had the courage to fight—his parents’ expectation that he go to medical school, their assumption that he become a doctor like his father.
He’d had the aptitude for science and so he’d gone ahead with it, majoring in biology at Columbia and then starting medical school there. He lasted two years, mainly because he met Megan and fell in love with her. But the more he got to know her, the clearer it became that he lacked her dedication, her drive. One night in the middle of studying for a pharmacy exam, he’d gone out for a cup of coffee. He walked a few blocks to stretch his legs, and then a few more. He kept walking down Broadway, one hundred blocks from his dorm in Washington Heights to Lincoln Center, and then continuing all the way to Chinatown where, at daybreak, feeling close to delirious, he finally stopped. Fish and vegetables were being unloaded from trucks, life creeping back onto the streets. He entered a bakery, had hot tea and coconut bread, watched a group of Chinese women sitting at a round table at the back, sorting through a mountain of spinach. He took the train back uptown, slept through his exam. He began to cut one class, then another. A week went by, and in spite of his total passivity, he felt that he was accomplishing the greatest feat of his life. He dropped out, not telling his parents until the semester ended. He’d expected Megan to break up with him, but she’d respected his decision and remained. On a lark, after dropping out of med school, he applied to the journalism school at Columbia but was not accepted. Megan urged him to write anyway, to work freelance and put together some clips. But the job at the medical journal was easier, more predictable work. It demanded less of him, and Amit could no longer imagine doing anything else.
“I had you pegged as a newspaperman,” Mr. Nagle said. “We won that wonderful award the year you graduated. Never managed to win it again. They still have the plaque up in the library.”
A third person joined them, a man who was introduced to Amit as the newly appointed director of alumni affairs. He took an immediate interest in Amit, asking whether he planned to attend the next reunion, talking about plans for Langford’s new gymnasium.
“Excuse me,” Amit said when there was a pause in the conversation, “I need to find my wife.” He realized that in the course of talking to Mr. Nagle he’d finished his drink and now had only the one for Megan. So he stood in the line again and got another