Villette (Barnes & Noble Classics) - Charlotte Bronte [224]
‘I, daughter, am Père Silas; that unworthy son of Holy Church whom you once honoured with a noble and touching confidence, showing me the core of a heart, and the inner shrine of a mind whereof, in solemn truth, I coveted the direction, in behalf of the only true faith. Nor have I for a day lost sight of you, nor for an hour failed to take in you a rooted interest. Passed under the discipline of Rome, moulded by her high training, inoculated with her salutary doctrines, inspired by the zeal she alone gives—I realize what then might be your spiritual rank, your practical value; and I envy Heresy her prey.’
This struck me as a special state of things—I half-realized myself in that condition also; passed under discipline, moulded, trained, inoculated, and so on. ‘Not so,’ thought I, but I restrained deprecation and sat quietly enough.
‘I suppose M. Paul does not live here?’ I resumed, pursuing a theme which I thought more to the purpose than any wild renegade dreams.
‘No; he only comes occasionally to worship his beloved saint, to make his confession to me, and to pay his respects to her he calls his mother. His own lodging consists but of two rooms; he has no servant, and yet he will not suffer Madame Walravens to dispose of those splendid jewels with which you see her adorned, and in which she takes a puerile pride as the ornaments of her youth, and the last relics of her son, the jeweller’s wealth.’
‘How often,’ murmured I to myself, ‘has this man, this M. Emanuel, seemed to me to lack magnanimity in trifles, yet how great he is in great things!’
I own I did not reckon amongst the proofs of his greatness, either the act of confession, or the saintworship.
‘How long is it since that lady died?’ I inquired, looking at Justine Marie.
‘Twenty years. She was somewhat older than M. Emanuel; he was then very young, for he is not much beyond forty.’
‘Does he yet weep her?’
‘His heart will weep her always: the essence of Emanuel’s nature is—constancy.’
This was said with marked emphasis.
And now the sun broke out pallid and waterish; the rain yet fell, but there was no more tempest; that hot firmament had cloven and poured out its lightnings. A longer delay would scarce leave daylight for my return, so I rose, thanked the father for his hospitality and his tale, was benignantly answered by a ‘pax vobiscum,’ which I made kindly welcome, because it seemed uttered with a true benevolence; but I liked less the mystic phrase accompanying it:
‘Daughter, you shall be what you shall be!’ an oracle that made me shrug my shoulders as soon as I had got outside the door. Few of us know what we are to come to certainly, but for all that had happened yet, I had good hopes of living and dying a sober-minded protestant: there was a hollowness within, and a flourish around ‘Holy Church’ which tempted me but moderately. I went on my way pondering many things. Whatever Romanism may be, there are good Romanists: this man, Emanuel, seemed of the best; touched with superstition, influenced by priestcraft, yet wondrous for fond faith, for pious devotion, for sacrifice of self, for charity unbounded. It remained to see how Rome, by her agents, handled such qualities; whether she cherished them for their own sake and for God’s, or put them out to usury and made booty of the interest.
By the time I reached home, it was sundown. Goton had kindly saved me a portion of dinner, which indeed I needed. She called me into the little cabinet to partake of it, and there Madame Beck soon made her appearance, bringing me a glass of wine.
‘Well,’ began she, chuckling, ‘and what sort of a reception did Madame Walravens give you? Elle est drôle, n’est ce pas?’hz
I told her what had passed, delivering verbatim the courteous message with which I had been charged.
‘Oh la singulière petite bossue!’ia laughed she: ‘Et figurez-vous qu’elle me déteste, parcequ’elle me croit amoureuse de mon cousin Paul; ce petit devot qui n‘ose pas bouger,