Warm and Willing - Lawrence Block [33]
Let him come looking for her at five-thirty. Let him find out he had been stood up. Let him take the hint for once and leave her alone.
Her head was splitting when she got back to the apartment. She took three aspirins and stretched out on the couch.
That night she went to a gay bar alone for the first time. She waited until nine for Megan to come home, then gave up sitting around the apartment and walked over to Leonetti’s. She joined four girls at a table and drank three scotch sours with them. They were all girls she had met at Jan Pomeroy’s party the Saturday before, and they were in couples, so that none of them had more than a friendly interest in Rhoda. She relaxed with them and talked with them, and it was better than sitting home alone waiting endless hours for Megan.
No one at Leonetti’s made a pass at her. A few of the girl’s at the bar gave her long-drink looks that let her know they were interested, but when she didn’t gaze back they let it go. There was no heavy cruising. A little after ten she went back to the apartment. Megan was there.
“You had me worried,” Megan said. “I’ve been waiting for you for close to an hour. Where were you?”
“Leonetti’s.”
“With who?”
“Why? Are you jealous?”
“Yes.”
“I was alone,” she said. “I missed you. I couldn’t stand it, all alone. I sat with some of the girls. That’s all.”
“Oh, baby—”
They made good love for the first time in too long. This time Megan was not too tired, and this time Rhoda felt a need that was a living force within her. A new sort of lovemaking, with a degree of desperation in it that she had not noticed before. Afterward, she was more depleted than satisfied. She slipped out of bed and went into the other room.
She drank a cup of coffee and smoked a cigarette. She sat naked in an armchair, the coffee cup on the table beside her, the cigarette smoldering in an ashtray balanced precariously on the arm of the chair. She smoked, drank coffee. She wondered what was wrong.
By the time she dragged herself to bed, she was tired enough so that sleep came quickly. She kissed Megan’s face before settling on her pillow. Megan did not stir. She closed her own eyes and let the world fade away.
Thursday was bad. She overslept and wound up rushing to work without breakfast, without even a cup of coffee, and she was still half an hour late. Mr. Yamatari didn’t mention it, just asked if her headache was better. He told her that a man had come looking for her—Ed Vance of course—and had been disappointed that she was not there. She had almost forgotten about the broken dinner date, and only hoped Ed wouldn’t come around again.
The morning was hectic, the afternoon slow and uncomfortably warm in the shop. By four she had a genuine headache, a splitting headache, but she couldn’t use that excuse again even if it was true this time. As soon as she got home she took three aspirins and lay down to rest.
That night she would have enjoyed being alone. And that night was the night when Megan discovered that she didn’t have to work late. Megan breezed in a few minutes after six, loud and happy, and Rhoda had to match the blonde girl’s mood. It was a strain.
“Let’s live a little tonight,” Megan said. “Maybe even catch a show. What’s the matter with you, kitten?”
“Headache.”
“Well, take some aspirin.”
“I did.”
“Poor kitten. Want me to stroke your head?” Megan didn’t wait for an answer. She sat on the edge of the couch and rubbed Rhoda’s forehead. Megan’s touch was light and her fingers were cool, but Rhoda did not feel like being touched, not at all. But she didn’t want to say so.
“I’ve been working like a dog this week. There’s so much to do and everybody’s in such a hurry. It’s crazy, working in spurts like this. I’ve missed you.”
She didn’t say anything.
“I’d like to cut loose a little tonight. Dinner for a start, and then maybe we can both get a little bit stoned. Unless your head—”
“I’m