WATER FOR ELEPHANT [12]
The only sign of civilization is the track, which rests on a raised bed of gravel. There is forest on one side and a small clearing on the other. From somewhere nearby I hear water trickling, and I pick my way toward it, guided by the moonlight.
The stream is a couple of feet wide at most. It runs along the tree line at the far side of the clearing and then cuts off into the woods. I peel off my shoes and socks and sit at its edge.
When I first submerge my feet in the frigid water, they hurt so badly I yank them out again. I persist, dunking them for longer and longer periods, until the cold finally numbs my blisters. I rest my soles against the rocky bottom and let the water wriggle between my toes. Eventually the cold causes its own ache, and I lie back on the bank, resting my head on a flat stone while my feet dry.
A coyote howls in the distance, a sound both lonely and familiar, and I sigh, allowing my eyes to close. When it is answered by a yipping only a few dozen yards to my left, I sit forward abruptly.
The faraway coyote howls again and this time is answered by a train whistle. I pull on my socks and shoes and rise, staring at the edge of the clearing.
The train is closer now, rattling and thumping toward me: CHUNK-a-chunk-a-chunk-a-chunk-a, CHUNK-a-chunk-a-chunk-a-chunk-a, CHUNK-a-chunk-a-chunk-a-chunk-a. . .
I wipe my hands on my thighs and walk toward the track, stopping a few yards short. The acrid stink of oil fills my nose. The whistle shrieks again—
TWE-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E—
A massive engine explodes around the bend and barrels past, so huge and so close I’m hit by a wall of wind. It churns out rolling clouds of billowing smoke, a fat black rope that coils over the cars behind it. The sight, the sound, the stink are too much. I watch, stunned, as half a dozen flat cars whoosh by, loaded with what look like wagons, although I can’t quite make them out because the moon has gone behind a cloud.
I snap out of my stupor. There are people on that train. It matters not a whit where it’s going because wherever it is, it’s away from coyotes and toward civilization, food, possible employment—maybe even a ticket back to Ithaca, although I haven’t a cent to my name and no reason to think they’d take me back. And what if they will? There is no home to return to, no practice to join.
More flat cars pass, loaded with what look like telephone poles. I look behind them, straining to see what follows. The moon slips out for a second, shining its bluish light on what might be freight cars.
I start running, moving the same direction as the train. My feet slip in the sloping gravel—it’s like running in sand, and I overcompensate by pitching forward. I stumble, flailing and trying to regain my balance before any part of me comes between the huge steel wheels and the track.
I recover and pick up speed, scanning each car for something to grab on to. Three flash by, locked up tight. They’re followed by stock cars. Their doors are open but filled by the exposed tail ends of horses. This is so odd I take note, even though I’m running beside a moving train in the middle of nowhere.
I slow to a jog and finally stop. Winded and very nearly hopeless, I turn my head. There’s an open door three cars behind me.
I lunge forward again, counting as they pass.
One, two, three—
I reach for the iron grab bar and fling myself upward. My left foot and elbow hit first, and then my chin, which smashes onto the metal edging. I cling tightly with all three. The noise is deafening, and my jawbone bangs rhythmically on the iron edging. I smell either blood or rust and wonder briefly if I’ve destroyed my teeth before realizing the point is in serious danger of becoming moot—I’m balanced perilously on the edge of the doorway with my right leg pointed at the undercarriage. With my right hand I cling to the grab bar. With my left I claw the floorboards so desperately the wood peels off, under my nails. I’m losing purchase