WATER FOR ELEPHANT [72]
I SCRAMBLE OUT OF Barbara’s tent and run smack into August. His face is dark as thunder.
“How is she?” I ask.
“We’re waiting for the doctor,” he says. “Did you catch the bull?”
“She’s back in the menagerie,” I say.
“Good,” he says. He rips the bull hook from my hand.
“August, wait! Where are you going?”
“I’m going to teach her a lesson,” he says without stopping.
“But August!” I shout after him. “Wait! She was good! She came back of her own accord. Besides, you can’t do anything now. The show is still going!”
He stops so abruptly a cloud of dust temporarily obscures his feet. He stands absolutely still, staring at the ground.
After a long while he speaks. “Good. The band will drown out the noise.”
I stare after him, my mouth open in horror.
I RETURN TO THE ring stock car and lie on my bedroll, sickened beyond belief by the thought of what’s going on in the menagerie and even more sickened that I’m doing nothing to prevent it.
A few minutes later, Walter and Queenie come back. He’s still in costume—a billowing white affair with multicolored polka dots, a triangular hat, and Elizabethan ruff. He’s wiping his face with a rag.
“What the hell was that?” he says, standing so that I’m looking at his oversized red shoes.
“What?” I say.
“In the Spec. Was that part of the act?”
“No,” I say.
“Holy cow,” he says. “Holy cow. In that case, what a save. Marlena’s really something. But you already knew that, didn’t you?” He clicks his tongue and leans over to poke my shoulder.
“Would you knock if off?”
“What?” he says, spreading his hands in feigned innocence.
“It’s not funny. She’s hurt, okay?”
He drops the goofy grin. “Oh. Hey, man, I’m sorry. I didn’t know. She gonna be okay?”
“I don’t know yet. They’re waiting for the doctor.”
“Shit. I’m sorry, Jacob. I really am.” He turns toward the door and takes a deep breath. “But not half as sorry as that poor bull’s gonna be.”
I pause. “She’s already sorry, Walter. Trust me.”
He stares out the door. “Ah jeez,” he says. He puts his hands on his hips and looks across the lot. “Ah jeez. I’ll just bet.”
I STAY IN THE stock car through dinner, and then through the evening show as well. I’m afraid that if I see August I’ll kill him.
I hate him. I hate him for being so brutal. I hate that I’m beholden to him. I hate that I’m in love with his wife and something damned close to that with the elephant. And most of all, I hate that I’ve let them both down. I don’t know if the elephant is smart enough to connect me to her punishment and wonder why I didn’t do anything to stop it, but I am and I do.
“Bruised heels,” says Walter when he returns. “Come on, Queenie, up! Up!”
“What?” I mumble. I haven’t moved since he left.
“Marlena bruised her heels. She’ll be out a couple of weeks. Thought you might want to know.”
“Oh. Thanks,” I say.
He sits on his cot and looks at me for a long time.
“So, what’s the story with you and August, anyway?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are you guys tight, or what?”
I haul my body into a sitting position and lean against the wall. “I hate the bastard,” I say finally.
“Ha!” Walter snorts. “Okay, so you do have some sense. So why do you spend all your time with them?”
I don’t answer.
“Oh, sorry. I forgot.”
“You’ve got it all wrong,” I say, hauling myself upright.
“Yeah?”
“He’s my boss and I have no choice.”
“That’s true. But it’s also about the woman, and you know it.”
I raise my head and glare at him.
“Okay, okay,” he says, raising his hands in surrender. “I’ll shut up. You know the score.” He turns and rummages in his crate. “Here,” he says, tossing me an eight-pager. It skids across the floor and stops beside me. “It’s not Marlena, but it’s better than nothing.”
After he turns away, I pick it up and thumb through it. But despite the explicit and exaggerated drawings, I can’t muster any interest whatever in Mr. Big Studio Director boning the skinny would-be starlet with the horse face.
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