What Alice Forgot - Liane Moriarty [109]
“Do you remember how to drive?” asked Tom.
“Yes, of course.” Alice’s hand hovered nervously over the handbrake.
“We’re late,” said Tom. “You might have to go quite a bit over the speed limit.”
It had been a strange and stressful morning. Tom had appeared at Alice’s bedroom door at seven a.m. and said, “Have you got your memory back?” “Not quite,” Alice had said, trying to shake her head free of a night of dreams all involving Nick yelling at her. “She hasn’t got it back!” she heard Tom cry, and then the sound of the television being switched on. When she got out of bed, she found Madison and Tom lounging around in their pajamas, eating cereal in front of the television. “Do you normally watch television before school?” Alice had asked. “Sometimes,” Tom had answered carefully, without removing his eyes from the TV. Twenty minutes later, he was in a frenzy, yelling that they needed to leave in five minutes’ time. That’s when it emerged that Olivia was still sound asleep in bed. Apparently it was Alice’s job to wake her.
“I think Olivia might be sick,” Alice had said, as Olivia kept collapsing back against the pillow, her head lolling to one side, saying sleepily, “No thank you, I’ll just stay here, thank you, goodbye.”
“Mum, she’s like this every morning,” Tom had said disgustedly.
Finally, after Alice had dragged a half-comatose Olivia into a school uniform and spooned cereal into her mouth, while Madison had spent half an hour with a roaring hair dryer in the bathroom, they had left the house, incredibly late, according to Tom.
Alice put her hand around the handbrake.
“Did you even brush your hair this morning, Mum?” asked Madison. “You look sort of . . . disgusting. No offense.”
Alice put a hand to her hair and tried to smooth it down. She had assumed that she didn’t need to dress up for dropping the kids off at school. She hadn’t bothered with hair or makeup and had pulled on a pair of jeans, a T-shirt, and an old watermelon-colored jumper she’d found at the back of the drawer. The jumper was faded and frayed, and it had given Alice a start when she realized she remembered buying it brand new with Elisabeth just the other week.
Just the other week ten years ago.
“Don’t be mean to darling Mummy,” Olivia said to Madison.
“Don’t be mean to darling Mummy!” mimicked Madison in a sugarysweet voice.
“Stop copying me!” Alice felt the thud of Olivia’s feet against her lower back as she kicked the seat.
“We’re so late,” moaned Tom.
“Would you three just be quiet for once in your lives!” snapped Alice, in a voice entirely unlike her own, and at the same time, she released the handbrake and reversed out of the driveway and turned left, her hands smooth and capable on the leather-clad steering wheel, as if she’d said exactly those words and done exactly that maneuver a million times before.
She drove toward the lights, her hand already on the indicator to turn right.
There was a sullen silence in the back of the car.
“So, what’s happening at school today?” she said.
Madison sighed dramatically as if she’d never heard a more stupid comment.
“Volcanoes,” answered Tom. “We’re talking about what makes a volcano erupt. I’ve written down some questions for Mrs. Buckley. Some pret-ty tricky questions.”
Poor Mrs. Buckley.
“We’re making a Mother’s Day surprise,” said Olivia.
“Now it’s not a surprise, is it?” said Madison.
“It is so!” said Olivia. “Mum, it is, isn’t it?”
“Yes, of course it’s still a surprise, I don’t know what you’re making,” said Alice.
“We’re making special candles,” said Olivia.
“Ha!” said Madison.
“Well, I still don’t know what color they are,” said Alice.
“Pink!” said Olivia.
Alice laughed.
“Idiot,” said Madison.
“Don’t call her that,” said Alice. Had she and Elisabeth spoken to each other in such a horrible way? Well, there was that time Elisabeth threw the nail scissors at her. For the first time, Alice felt sorry for their mother. She didn’t remember her ever yelling at them when they fought, just sighing a lot, and saying plaintively, “Be nice, girls.