Where the God of Love Hangs Out - Amy Bloom [9]
Her husband props the crutches up against the coffee table, tilting the handles in Clare’s direction, and after he’s laid a pillow under her mottled pink-and-blue ankle and a towel over the pillow and a bag of ice over everything, he brings in tea for Clare and her uncle David. He leaves to run errands. Neither of them asks Charles what kind of errands or when he’ll be back; he carried and fetched and did for them all morning, and if he had said that he was going off to bet on greyhounds, or try a little Ecstasy, or worse, Clare and David would understand. Clare and David share a strong dislike of being, and caring for, the disabled. David is in Clare and Charles’s house to recover from triple-bypass surgery and to entertain his niece during her period of limited mobility. Mostly, they read together in the living room.
“He is sweet,” Clare says aloud. It’s not what she usually says about her husband. She thinks good things; she thinks interesting, she thinks handsome (the first thousand times he stepped out of the shower, water still flowing down the runnel of his spine, she thought, Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, how can anyone be so beautiful), she thinks he is much nicer than William ever was. William would have shaken his head over her ugly ankle, made his own coffee, and waddled upstairs, leaving her lying on the couch like in What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? Clare doesn’t think about William every day anymore; she thinks about him mostly when she is falling asleep or when she’s about to see him, which will be in the next few minutes. William and Isabel are pulling up to Clare and Charles’s front door right now. William struggles with his cane and himself and a bag of nectarines. Isabel gathers up the groceries and a canvas tote of mysteries. She looks away as William rocks himself up and out of the passenger seat.
Uncle David reaches for his tea, which will not be the way he likes it, but he has made up his mind not to complain. The man went to the trouble of making tea. David didn’t quite catch what Clare said about Charley. He hopes she isn’t complaining. She’s no day at the beach, his niece; the sprained ankle has not made her a happier, nicer person. If he were Charley, he would make up pressing business in Baltimore, never mind a few errands down town.
“This is okay,” Uncle David says. “This is fine. He makes a better cup of tea than you do.”
“Well, good. Half English. The Magna Carta. Men’s shoes. Tea.”
“And roast beef,” David says, and he is about to add “and sodomy” just to keep the conversational ball rolling, when Isabel he can’t remember her last name walks into the room, with bags of things. No one bothered to tell him she was coming. He would have put on a fresh shirt. He might have shaved. She’s a good-looking woman, and well read for a real estate agent, and she has that quality, that way of making it clear that she wants him to get what he wants, that makes even plain women—and Isabel is not plain—very attractive. Clare is the more interesting person; as a human being, he’d pick Clare over Isabel, but he can’t see how you’d be married to Isabel and chase Clare. It would make no sense, except David does remember chasing, and catching, a big, bushy-haired girl with thighs like Smithfield hams, and after her, chasing an Egyptian ballerina whose kohl ran onto his linen sports coat, so he had to just leave it, streaked and stuffed into a wastebasket, in Grand Central Terminal—all while married to the most beautiful woman in the world, a woman who turned heads until the day she died. He can see his wife and those girls, and a few other women, all rotating delicately in the same shadowy, treacherous light.
“We brought nice things,” Isabel says, and kisses them both.
“You smell good,” Clare says. Clare doesn’t smell good. She smells like rancid butter and wet wool. She smells just like a yak, and her one skimpy shower didn’t change that or keep her