You Are Not a Stranger Here - Adam Haslett [8]
From here in the descending glass cage I can see globes of orange light stretching along the boulevards of Santa Monica toward the beach where the shaded palms sway. I’ve always found the profusion of lights in American cities a cause for optimism, a sign of undiminished credulity, something to bear us along. In the distance, the shimmering pier juts into the vast darkness of the ocean like a burning ship launched into the night.
THE GOOD DOCTOR
AS HE PULLED up the drive, Frank saw the skeleton of a Chevy Nova, grass to the windows, rusting in the side yard like some battle-wasted tank. Toy guns and action figures, their plastic faded, lay scattered over the brown lawn. The house, a white fifties prefab, sagged to one side, the chimney tilting. To its left stood a dilapidated barn. From the green spray-painted letters on its door announcing No Girls Allowed it seemed clear the building had some time ago been delivered from the intention of its creator into the hands of children.
He cut the engine and watched the cloud of dirt his tires had kicked up drift into a stand of oak trees shading the side of the house. They were the only trees in sight, empty prairie stretching miles in every direction. He rested his hands and chin over the top of the steering wheel, his head weighed down with the sinus ache of his hangover.
One of the reasons he’d taken his job at a county clinic two thousand miles from his friends and family was that the National Health Service Corps had promised to repay his medical school loans in return for three years’ work in an underserved area. Last night he’d come back to his apartment to find a letter in the mail: Congress was cutting the program’s funding, leaving him the full burden of his debt and a paltry salary to pay it with. He’d spent a year at the job already, and now they were hanging him out to dry. For the first time in his life there was uncertainty in his future. From college to medical school to residency to this job, everything had been applied for and planned. Now he wasn’t even sure he could afford to stay. He’d got drunk on a bottle of scotch his friend from back East had sent him for his birthday. The last thing he had wanted to do today was drive two and half hours here to Ewing Falls to evaluate some woman who’d been refusing to visit the clinic for a year and demanding her medication by phone.
Nearly hundred-degree weather had settled over the state for the last week and today was no exception. With each step across the drive, more dirt rose powder dry into the air. By the time he mounted the porch steps, sweat dampened his collar.
A first knock produced no response. He waited a minute before tapping again. The shades in the front room were pulled to the middle of the windows and all he could see was the wood floor and the floral print back of a sofa. He turned to look across the yard and saw a girl standing in the driveway. She seemed to have appeared from nowhere. By the height of her, she looked eight or nine, but her rigid mouth and narrowed eyes suggested someone older.
“Hey, there.” As soon as he spoke, the girl started walking quickly away, toward the trees.
“Hey,” Frank called to her back, “are your folks home?”
“She ain’t a bigger talker,” a voice behind him said. Frank turned back toward the door to see a middle-aged man dressed in a sweatshirt and work pants. Spidery angiomas, those star-shaped discolorations of the vessels seen in liver patients, blotched the skin of his rounded face. Hepatitis C, Frank thought, or the end of a serious drinking habit. The man took a drag on his cigarette, holding the filter between thumb and forefinger, the exhaled smoke floating over the porch, tingling Frank’s nostrils.
“You’re the one they sent up from the clinic,” he said flatly. He leaned forward, squinting. “Bit young