American Chica_ Two Worlds, One Childhood - Marie Arana [1]
My parents are young. It is their moment. Every marriage has one. When love seems infinite, the road feels free, and nights trip festively into day.
I was only four, but life had already had upheavals. The year I came into the world, five major earthquakes shook Peru. By the time I stood at that window, I’d lived through eighteen. I cannot recollect any one of them. Off in a geologist’s lab, a needle was dancing, wild, registering one disaster after another.
Three days before I dangled my head into that courtyard, a quake ripped through the Peruvian seaboard, registering almost eight points on the Richter scale. It started shortly after five in the afternoon. The men were at work, the women in kitchens, their children at play. Where was I? The entire population of our hacienda must have heard the rumble beneath, felt the waggle in the stomach, seen concrete slabs wrench loose and skitter across ground. Across, then up, in fragments—belching gray dust. Walls usually rip before a mind can factor it, roofs fall, babies hurl through air.
I know it happened only because the World Data Center for Seismology tells me so. Earthquake, December 12, 1953, South America: Latitude 4°, Longitude 80°. Magnitude, 7.8. Displacements: thousands. Deaths: severe.
Shaky days. Yet all I can recall of them is a predawn tableau, my mother and father bursting into our garden with joy.
As I grew older and learned to register the ground beneath my feet, I saw that my parents’ marriage was shot through with fissures. Something like earthquakes would come—geologic upheavals, when the foundations that underlay their union would rattle with dislocation and longing—but now, just now, in the eighth year of marriage, with three children upstairs and my father’s engineering career in ascendance—in that quick freeze frame before dawn—the gulf between them did not matter much. They were full. They were one. And I, hovering above their world, was seamless and faultless and whole.
A South American man, a North American woman—hoping against hope, throwing a frail span over the divide, trying to bolt beams into sand. There was one large lesson they had yet to learn as they strode into the garden with friends, hungry for rum and fried blood: There is a fundamental rift between North and South America, a flaw so deep it is tectonic. The plates don’t fit. The earth is loose. A fault runs through. Earthquakes happen. Walls are likely to fall.
As I looked down at their fleeting radiance, I had no idea I would spend the rest of my life puzzling over them: They were so different from each other, so obverse in every way. I did not know that however resolutely they built their bridge, I would only wander its middle, never quite reaching either side. These were things I was slow to understand.
I see such childhood moments in sharp relief now. The past comes slamming up like rock through earth, brought there by sights and sounds, sheer happenstance. Aftershocks, they are. One shivered through not long ago, on a winter afternoon as I lazed in the company of a friend.
She was a rain-forest woman. She’d never seen cleared land until the year before I knew her, when she stepped from the jungle onto a patch of dirt where a helicopter sat waiting to lift her out. She had never seen a road, a roof, a wheel, a knife. She was an Amazon nomad, a Yanomama, one of “the fierce people.” Spikes pierced her face. She was not used to possessions. There had been little reason to carry things—a string of beads, a sharpened rock, at most. No need for clothes. No need for walls to house them. Bed was a hammock of vines. But there came a day when an anthropologist from Philadelphia pushed through the undergrowth to tell her he had come to study her language and ways. Before her sixteenth birthday, he had made her his wife, given her three children, taken her out in that helicopter, back to his New Jersey home.
One January afternoon, as I sat with her on the floor of their Hackensack living