Bachelor Unleashed - Brenda Jackson [50]
She leaned in, and he felt her warmth deep, all the way to the pit of his stomach. He wasn’t surprised when he felt the shiver ease up his spine and his erection get harder. Desire sizzled through him, and he fought to push it back. This woman could set his body on fire, and at any other time he would take advantage of it. But not this time. He had his game plan tonight and didn’t want to ruin it.
But there was no reason he couldn’t make love to her mouth if not her body, was there? After all, when it came to kissing, they always indulged in the ultimate enjoyment. Then he remembered. The fact that he had managed to breathe six months without tasting her was a miracle, and he didn’t intend to suffer through that agony again.
He finally pulled his mouth away, but their greedy tongues were still intent on doing a tangling dance, if not inside their mouths then out. They always enjoyed this type of play where they took licking and sucking to a whole new level.
And then his tongue was back inside her mouth again, and his arms tightened around her. It wouldn’t take much to ease her down on the sofa, push her dress up, pull down those leggings and bury his head between her legs and do a lot of tongue play there. It wouldn’t take much enticement for him to kiss every inch of her body. Unfortunately, he would save that specific activity for another day. Unknown her to, this kind of kissing was all they would be doing tonight.
Ah hell, he thought, when he felt her hands wiggle between them and her fingers tug on his zipper. He needed to stop her before she went down on him. There was no way he could resist that. With all the strength he could gather, all the control he could muster, he reached down and took hold of her hand to stop her from going further.
She pulled her mouth from his and looked up at him with a questioning gaze. “Why are you holding my hands, Xavier?”
Before answering her question, he leaned down and took another lick around her mouth. Hell, she tasted as good as she looked. “I want to give you time to be absolutely sure I’m what you want, Farrah.”
He had worded the statement carefully. Instead of saying he wanted her to be sure that the affair was what she wanted, he had said he wanted her to be sure that he was what she wanted. There was a difference, and over the next few weeks he would show her what that difference was.
“But I already know you’re what I want, Xavier.”
Yes, she would want him sexually, that was a given. But he wanted her to want him in a way she’d never wanted another man, a way that went deeper than mere sex. He wanted to conquer her heart. For a man who just last week had thought he didn’t need the love of a woman, in the last forty-eight hours he had been proven wrong.
“Yes, but I want you to be certain because now that you’ve agreed to an unlimited affair with me, Farrah, there’s no turning back.”
She lifted her brow, as if his comment gave her pause. “No turning back” sounded kind of final in his book, so he knew it sounded likewise in hers, but now he was talking for keeps.
She didn’t say anything for a long moment and then, “Why are you trying to make things so complicated, Xavier?”
“Sorry if you think I’m doing that, sweetheart, but I just want to make sure a few weeks from now you don’t try kicking me out of your life again. I have to know that we want the same thing out of this relationship.”
He was trying to defuse any suspicions she had that things with him weren’t on the up-and-up. He only hoped when she discovered they weren’t she would be too far gone to care.
She nodded slowly. “Okay, I guess that makes sense.”
“It does. Besides, another reason I need to make it an early night is because Cameron is flying in tomorrow and I need to have some papers ready for him to sign when he does.”
He was deliberately giving her the impression that he was putting work before her. Although she didn’t say anything, he could tell she was