Cowboy Casanova - Lorelei James [69]
But it didn’t help. When she began to shake, not even the inferno of his skin against hers warmed her. He practically carried her to the shower. Holding her beneath the blessedly hot water as the jets pummeled her sore muscles and the steam thawed her from the outside in.
And when the tremors ended, she let the last tears fall, feeling more vulnerable now than any other time with him.
Run. Get out of here now and don’t look back.
“I’m okay,” she lied in a whisper against his chest.
“You sure? We can stay in here as long as you need.”
“I’m sure.”
With those long, muscular arms, he grabbed towels hanging from the racks. He tied one turban-style around her head. Dried her thoroughly with the other, and wrapped a bath sheet around her body. He led her back into the bedroom and wrapped her with his robe before tucking her between the covers.
Bennett gathered her in his arms and piled another blanket on top of them.
“I’m still so cold.”
“You’re not cold. You’re shaken. And it’s my…” Resting his chin on the top of her head, he said gruffly, “Never mind. It’ll keep. Sleep.”
But she couldn’t sleep. When she wiggled out of his arms, he let her. When she crept out of his house a few hours later, he let her do that too.
Chapter Sixteen
“What’re you so pissy about today?”
Ben scowled at Quinn. “I’m not pissy.”
“Yeah, you always stomp around and throw shit.”
“Fine. I’m in a bad mood. Can we leave it at that and get this damn thing fixed?”
Quinn sighed. “This is beyond what either of us can fix.” He kicked the tire. “Let’s load it up and take it to D and F.”
Ben bit back a snarl. His brother might’ve said that, oh, an hour ago when they first started dicking with the ATV. “I’ll go get the trailer.” But when he got to the backside of the barn, he saw both tires were flat. “Son of a bitch.” They only had one spare. Which meant they’d have to take both tires off and see if they were salvageable.
A shadow appeared beside him. “Guess I shoulda checked that before now, huh?”
“Probably.” Ben pushed upright. “I’ll get the jack.”
The tire had settled into the ground on the opposite side, making Ben wonder when was the last time they’d used the trailer.
Out of the blue, Quinn said, “Is it woman trouble? Because only woman trouble puts a look like that on a man’s face. Trust me, I know.”
The jack clanked. “Why you doin’ this?”
“Doin’ what? Talkin’ to you? I’m pretty sure you ain’t talkin’ to nobody else about this.”
Ben grunted.
“Come on. You don’t gotta give me her name, but this is eatin’ at you, bro.”
Eating at him was putting it mildly. He’d had a hollow feeling in his gut that felt a lot like shame. “I did something…that didn’t seem wrong at the time, but now I’m feeling guilty about it.” He’d taken the harshest stance imaginable with Ainsley—a new sub—showing her what it really meant to be used. Using sex as punishment.
You think she might’ve been upset? Since she didn’t want you to touch her and she left in the middle of the fucking night?
What the fuck had he been thinking?
Because after seeing Ainsley’s flood of tears before she fled, he had an acute sense of failure. As a man. As a lover. As a Dom. For the first time ever, he’d questioned his actions. His rights as her dominant. Whether he’d tried to break a woman, instead of breaking through a woman’s barriers. Whether he’d been punishing her out of his frustration with her.
The fact he was so upset he couldn’t think straight, or concentrate, indicated he’d stepped over the line. And it sliced his guts to ribbons that she hadn’t said her safe word.
“Ben?”
He looked up at Quinn. “Sorry. Did you say something?”
“Just wondering how long ago this happened?”
“Seems a helluva lot longer than just last night.”
Quinn crossed his arms over his chest. “Is that why you volunteered to take Libby to town last night? To meet up with her?”
“Yeah.”
“Man, you don’t give an inch. And people say I’m closemouthed? You’ve got me beat by a country mile. Have you tried talkin’ to her about it?”
“Not yet.”
“But you do plan to, right?”
Ben tossed the socket to