Evermore - Alyson Noel [5]
I reach into my backpack, retrieve my dog-eared copy, and dangle it from the tips of my fingers, part of me yearning to brush the tips against his, to make contact with this beautiful stranger, while the other part, the stronger, wiser, psychic part cringes—dreading the awful flash of insight that comes with each touch.
But it’s not until he’s tossed the book into his car, lowered his sunglasses, and said, “Thanks, see you tomorrow,” that I realize that other than a slight tingle in the tips of my fingers, nothing happened. And before I can even respond, he’s backing out of the space and driving away.
“Excuse me,” Miles says, shaking his head as he climbs in beside me. “But when I said you’d freak out when you saw him, it wasn’t a suggestion, it wasn’t supposed to be taken literally. Seriously Ever, what happened back there? Because that was some mega tense awkwardness, a real Hello, my name is Ever and I’ll be your next stalker kind of moment. I’m so serious, I thought we were gonna have to resuscitate you. And believe me, you are extremely lucky our good friend Haven was not here to see that, because I hate to remind you, but she did call dibs . . .”
Miles continues like that, yammering on and on, the entire way home. But I just let him talk it out as I navigate traffic, my finger absently tracing the thick red scar on my forehead, the one that’s hidden under my bangs.
I mean, how can I explain how ever since the accident, the only people whose thoughts I can’t hear, whose lives I can’t know, and whose auras I can’t see, are already dead?
three
I let myself into the house, grab a bottle of water from the fridge, then head upstairs to my room, since I don’t have to poke around any further to know Sabine’s still at work. Sabine’s always at work, which means I get this whole huge house to myself, pretty much all the time, even though I usually just stay in my room.
I feel bad for Sabine. I feel bad that the life she worked so hard for was forever changed the day she got stuck with me. But since my mom was an only child and all of my grandparents had passed by the time I was two, it’s not like she had much of a choice. I mean, it was either live with her—my dad’s only sibling and twin—or go into foster care until I turned eighteen. And even though she doesn’t know anything about raising kids, I wasn’t even out of the hospital before she’d sold her condo, bought this big house, and hired one of Orange County’s top decorators to trick out my room.
I mean, I have all the usual things like a bed, a dresser, and a desk. But I also have a flat-screen TV, a massive walk-in closet, a huge bathroom with a Jacuzzi tub and separate shower stall, a balcony with an amazing ocean view, and my own private den/game room, with yet another flat-screen TV, a wet bar, microwave, mini fridge, dishwasher, stereo, couches, tables, bean-bag chairs, the works.
It’s funny how before I would’ve given anything for a room like this.
But now I’d give anything just to go back to before.
I guess since Sabine spends most of her time around other lawyers and all those VIP executives her firm represents, she actually thought all of this stuff was necessary or something. And I’ve never been sure if her not having kids is because she works all the time and can’t schedule it in, or if she just hasn’t met the right guy yet, or if she never wanted any to begin with, or maybe a combination of all three.
It probably seems like I should know all of that, being psychic and all. But I can’t necessarily see a person’s motivation, mainly what I see are events. Like a whole string of images reflecting someone’s life, like flash cards or something, only more in a movie-trailer format. Though sometimes I just see symbols that I have to decode to know what they mean. Kind of like with tarot cards, or when we had to read Animal Farm in Honors English last year.
Though it’s far from