Evermore - Alyson Noel [6]
Anyway, I don’t think you have to be clairvoyant to know that when people dream of having kids they’re usually thinking in terms of a pastel-wrapped, tiny bundle of joy, and not some five-foot-four, blue-eyed, blond-haired teenager with psychic powers and a ton of emotional baggage. So because of that, I try to stay quiet, respectful, and out of Sabine’s way.
And I definitely don’t let on that I talk to my dead little sister almost every day.
The first time Riley appeared, she was standing at the foot of my hospital bed, in the middle of the night, holding a flower in one hand and waving with the other. I’m still not sure what it was that awoke me, since it’s not like she spoke or made any kind of sound. I guess I just felt her presence or something, like a change in the room, or a charge in the air.
At first I assumed I was hallucinating—just another side effect of the pain medication I was on. But after blinking a bunch and rubbing my eyes, she was still there, and I guess it never occurred to me to scream or call for help.
I watched as she came around to the side of my bed, pointed at the casts covering my arms and leg, and laughed. I mean, it was silent laughter, but still, it’s not like I thought it was funny. But as soon as she noticed my angry expression, she rearranged her face and motioned as though asking if it hurt.
I shrugged, still a little unhappy with her for laughing, and more than a little freaked by her presence. And even though I wasn’t entirely convinced it was really her, that didn’t stop me from asking, “Where are Mom and Dad and Buttercup?”
She tilted her head to the side, as though they were standing right there beside her, but all I could see was blank space.
“I don’t get it.”
But she just smiled, placed her palms together, and tilted her head to the side, indicating that I should go back to sleep.
So I closed my eyes, even though I never would’ve taken orders from her before. Then just as quickly I opened them and said, “Hey, who said you could borrow my sweater?”
And just like that, she was gone.
I admit, I spent the rest of that night angry with myself for asking such a stupid, shallow, selfish question. Here I’d had the opportunity to get answers to some of life’s biggest queries, to possibly gain the kind of insight people have been speculating about for ages. But instead, I wasted the moment calling out my dead little sister for raiding my closet. I guess old habits really do die hard.
The second time she appeared, I was just so grateful to see her, I didn’t make any mention of the fact that she was wearing not just my favorite sweater, but also my best jeans (that were so long the hems puddled around her ankles), and the charm bracelet I got for my thirteenth birthday that I always knew she coveted.
Instead I just smiled and nodded and acted as though I didn’t even notice, as I leaned toward her and squinted. “So where’re Mom and Dad?” I asked, thinking they’d appear if I just looked hard enough.
But Riley just smiled and flapped her arms by her sides.
“You mean they’re angels?” My eyes went wide.
She rolled her eyes and shook her head, clutching her waist as she bent over in fits of silent laughter.
“Okay, fine, whatever.” I threw my body back against the pillows, thinking she was really pushing it, even if she was dead. “So tell me, what’s it like over there?” I asked, determined not to fight. “Are you, well, do you like, live in heaven?”
She closed her eyes and raised her palms as though balancing an object, and then right out of nowhere, a painting appeared.
I leaned forward, gazing at a picture of what was surely paradise, matted in off-white and encased in an elaborate