Go tell it on the mountain - James Baldwin [60]
‘Is there a soul here to-night’—tears were on his face and he stood above them with arms outstretched—‘who knows not the meaning of that tumult? Is there a soul here to-night who wants to talk to Jesus? Who wants to wait before the Lord, amen, until He speaks? Until He makes to ring in your soul, amen, the glad tidings of salvation? Oh, brothers and sisters’—and still she did not rise; but only watched him from far away—‘the time is running out. One day He’s coming back to judge the nations, to take His children, hallelujah, to their rest. They tell me, bless God, that two shall be working in the fields, and one shall be taken and the other left. Two shall be lying, amen, in bed, and one shall be taken and the other left. He’s coming, beloved, like a thief in the night, and no man knows the hour of His coming. It’s going to be too late then to cry: “Lord, have mercy.” Now is the time to make yourself ready, now, amen, to-night, before His altar. Won’t somebody come to-night? Won’t somebody say No to Satan and give their life to the Lord?’
But she did not rise, only looked at him and looked about her with a bright, pleased interest, as though she were at a theater and were waiting to see what improbable delights would next be offered to her. He somehow knew that she would never rise and walk that long aisle to the mercy seat. And this filled him for a moment with a holy rage–that she stood, so brazen, in the congregation of the righteous and refused to bow her head.
He said amen, and blessed them, and turned away, and immediately the congregation began to sing. Now, again, he felt drained and sick; he was soaking wet and he smelled the odor of his own body. Deborah, singing and beating her tambourine in the front of the congregation, watched him. He felt suddenly like a helpless child. He wanted to hide himself for ever and never cease from crying.
Esther and her mother left during the singing—they had come, then, only to hear him preach. He could not imagine what they were saying or thinking now. And he thought of to-morrow, when he would have to see her again.
‘Ain’t that the little girl what works at the same place with you?’ Deborah asked him on the way home.
‘Yes,’ he said. Now he did not feel like talking. He wanted to get home and take his wet clothes off and sleep.
‘She mighty pretty,’ said Deborah. ‘I ain’t never seen her in church before.’
He said nothing
‘Was it you invited her