I Love a Broad Margin to My Life - Maxine Hong Kingston [47]
is supposed to be honoring grandmothers, and admiring
macho men? “Do not let mother and father go
hungry; feed them meat from the flesh of your arm.”
Walking past the incense ladies, all
acting important, I go inside the temple.
Up on platforms, the fortune-tellers,
all men, perform their specialties—
coins, yarrow, the I Ching, magic
birds, turtle shells. They read palms,
read the loops and whorls and arches on
fingerprints, read words on sticks of
bamboo, read faces and freckles
and bumps on heads. I buy a fortune.
I point to a little cage in a row
of little cages. The magic man slides
open the door. Out hops a java
finch. It picks up a card in its diamond
beak: the Woman Warrior, charging forth
on her white horse, wielding her double broadswords.
“You are brave, you will live a long life.”
But he must tell everyone: You’ll live long.
Never death. Never suicide. The java finch
eats a reward of seeds, and hops back
into its cage. In Xi’an, there are drum
towers and bell towers, and wild goose
towers. Chinese contrary, the Small
Wild Goose is 13 stories
high; the Big Wild Goose, 7.
A poet was once seen riding a wild goose,
flying over the city, and away. All
had been golden, the goose, the poet, his robes,
the towers. The eyewitnesses watched until
they saw what seemed to be a golden insect
vanish into the sky. I give incense
and make slow bows at Big Wild Goose,
that I should write well, like Du Fu
and Li Bai, who had both come here,
and written well. That my writing give life,
to whomever I write about, as Shakespeare
promised. Chinese are mad for long life.
Quest and wish for time, more time,
more, yet more. Carve poems and decrees
on rocks. Erect forests of steles. 500
pyramids to safeguard the emperors
inside them, and their armies, and horses,
acrobats, and musicians, always. I myself
have tasted longlife medicine—bitter.
My mother gave it to us. Rabbit-in-the-Moon—
my father—mixes the elixir for immortality.
But I have seen poets training in impermanence.
Early in the paved city, when dew beads
the marble and concrete, the poets write with water.
He or she stands quietly holding
the tall brush, like a lance, like a shuffleboard
paddle, like a pole vault pole. Then touches
the writing end—a cloth-wrapped mallet, not a mop—
down upon the hard ground, the page.
Legs spread, the poet, straddling the coming words,
sweeps downward stroke to the left, upward
stroke to the right, dabs quick dots,
pulls horizontal lines, pulls vertical
lines, flips a sharp-curve tail.
Gets to the end before the beginning dries.
Onlookers, readers, and fellow poets
leaning on their own writing poles, read
aloud the transpiring words, one
word, next word, then the whole
fleeting poem, exclaim over it, criticize it,
memorize it, sing it once more as the sun
dries it up. They stand around the spot
where the poem had been, don’t step on it,
and discuss the writing of it, the idea of it,
the prosody of it with its creator. The sun rises,
time to wet the brushes in the water bucket.
Dip again and again, and write long
long lines. No corrections! No
reworking! One poet writes,
another poet writes—in answer!
I should’ve asked to borrow a writing pole,
and drawn an enso as big a circle as I
could make in one wet swoop all
the way around myself, me the center.
In Japanese Zen, on your 60th birthday,
you can draw a perfect circle. However
it arcs or squiggles, however black or faint,
large or small, one swoop or 2
discontinuous strokes—perfect.
You’ve brought to the making of it your lifetime
of ability. My perfect reader would know to read
my enso’s journey from Asia to America back
to Asia, from classical times to modern, to New Age.
In the park of formal gardens, the martial artists—
practitioners of the many ways of kung fu,
and disco, women with fans, women with the long
ribbon, swordswomen, swordsmen—are moving
and dancing to the rhythms of his own discipline,
her own discipline. Solitaries, too, claim
their places