Invisible man - Ralph Ellison [213]
"Don't answer, boo'ful," she said, her voice coming through suddenly, out of time with the working of her mouth.
"What?" I said.
"Don't answer, let'er ring," she said, reaching her red-nailed fingers forth.
I took it from her hands, understanding now.
"Don't, boo'ful," she said.
It rang again in my hand now and for no reason at all the words of a childhood prayer spilled through my mind like swift water. Then: "Hello," I said.
It was a frantic, unrecognizable voice from the district. "Brother, you better get up here right away --" it said.
"I'm ill," I said. "What's wrong?"
"There's trouble, Brother, and you're the only one who can --"
"What kind of trouble?"
"Bad trouble, Brother; they trying to --"
Then the harsh sound of breaking glass, distant, brittle and fine, followed by a crash, and the line went dead.
"Hello," I said, seeing Sybil wavering before me, her lips saying, "Boo'ful."
I tried to dial now, hearing the busy signal throbbing back at me: Amen-Amen-Amen Ah man; and I sat there a while. Was it a trick? Did they know she was with me? I put it down. Her eyes were looking at me from out of their blue shadow. "Boo --"
And now I stood and pulled her arm. "Let's go, Sybil. They need me uptown" -- realizing only then that I would go.
'"No," she said.
s'"But yes. Come."
She fell back upon the bed defying me. I released her arms and looked around, my head unclear. What kind of trouble at this hour? Why should I go? She watched me, her eyes brightly awash in blue shadow. My heart felt low and deeply sad.
"Come back, boo'ful," she said.
"No, let's get some air," I said.
And now, avoiding the red, oily nails I gripped her wrists and pulled her up, toward the door. We tottered, her lips brushing mine as we wavered there. She clung to me and, for an instant, I to her with a feeling immeasurably sad. Then she hiccupped and I looked vacantly back into the room. The light caught in the amber liquid of our glasses.
"Boo'ful," she said, "life could be so diff'rent --"
"But it never is," I said.
She said, "Boo'ful."
The fan whirred. And in a corner, my brief case, covered with specks of dust like memories -- the night of the battle royal. I felt her breathing hot against me and pushed her gently away, steadying her against the door frame, then went over as impulsively as the remembered prayer, and got the brief case, brushing the dust against my leg and feeling the unexpected weight as I hugged it beneath my arm. Something clinked inside.
She watched me still, her eyes alight as I took her arm.
"How're you doing, Syb?" I said.
"Don't go, boo'ful," she said. "Let Georgie do it. No speeches tonight."
"Come on," I said, taking her arm quite firmly, pulling her along as she sighed, her wistful face turned toward me.
We went down smoothly into the street. My head was still badly fuzzed from the drink, and when I looked down the huge emptiness of the dark I felt like tears . . . What was happening uptown? Why should I worry over bureaucrats, blind men? I am invisible. I stared down the quiet street, feeling her stumbling beside me, humming a little tune; something fresh, naïve and carefree. Sybil, my too-late-too-early love . . . Ah! My throat throbbed. The heat of the street clung close. I looked for a taxi but none was passing. She hummed beside me, her perfume unreal in the night. We moved into the next block and still no taxis. Her high heels unsteadily scrunched the walk. I stopped her.
"Poor boo'ful," she said. "Don't know his name . . ."
I turned as though struck. "What?"
"Anonymous brute 'n boo'ful buck," she said, her mouth a bleary smile.
I looked at her, skittering about on high heels, scrunch, scrunch on the walk.
"Sybil," I said, more to myself than to her, "where will it end?" Something told me to go.
"Aaaah," she laughed,