Look Closely - Laura Caldwell [105]
The plane barreled down the runway. When the wheels finally lifted off the tarmac, I squeezed my eyes closed. I was heading for a new beginning. In fact, so many new chapters started after that day in New Orleans.
Perhaps calling them “new chapters” is too grand, because for many of us nothing changed outwardly. Dan, for example, went home to Albuquerque and found a new sales job. He made amends in the form of stepped-up child-support payments to Sharon, and once some extra cash was coming in, he was allowed to resume his weekends and his Wednesday nights with Annie. Most of the people who vaguely know him, his neighbors, for example, might have noticed that he was gone for a few weeks, but to them very little about Dan’s life would look different. Yet, isn’t that how it is? We rarely know what other people go through in their lives.
I’ll soon get to find out firsthand what Annie is like. Dan is bringing her to visit my new home next week. My heart threatens to leap out of my body every time I think of it. Annie. Dan. Family. With me.
Caroline returned to her beloved Matt and their cozy house on Northeast Jarrett Street in Portland. They had to work through the secrets she’d kept from him and the agony she’d put him through. But again, their lives, to the unknowing observer, belie little change. In fact, Caroline has blossomed with the unearthing of the secrets. She’s pregnant. If it’s a girl, they’ll name her Leah.
Ty’s father decided to leave the police force. He still believes he deserved the chief position, but he can’t stand how he got it. He’s decided to work with his son at Long Beach Inn.
My father has faired the worst from all of this. It was as if the secrets were the steam that kept him going, and without it, he’s wilted. He has gone into semiretirement, but he doesn’t seem to know what to do with his free time. Luckily, he’s met someone. A woman from his golf club. Will Sutter is dating for the first time in decades, and that puts a smile on his face every so often. For a while, he came to see my therapist with me, and we tried to work through what he did after my mom died, why he did it. The course he charted was flawed, but it was born of love. It’s tough to fault someone who loves you so much.
I never did represent McKnight Corporation in the trial against Kingston Marketing. Magoo and Natalie tried the case, and to my internal chagrin, they won. There are rumors on Wall Street, though, that McKnight’s board has grown tired of his high salary, his elitist ways and the company’s lack of growth. If the rumors are right, there may soon be a McKnight Corporation without Sean McKnight at the helm.
As for Maddy, she was devastated about “Grant.” Sean McKnight had beaten me to the punch, and by the time I returned to New York, she knew all about his deception. Maddy said she cried and screamed as he told her the story; she threw her college tennis trophy at him. She still regrets that she missed his head by a half an inch. But like the true friend that she is, her concern was for me. How was I doing? she wanted to know as soon as I got back. Did I want to talk about it?
I did want to talk, in fact, because I’ve learned something through this whole ordeal. I’ve learned that although I can control my professional life with a tight fist, something I’m very good at (probably too good at), I can’t hold so tight to my heart. I’ve tried, God knows I’ve tried. I have rarely gotten deeply involved with men, and I pushed away the confrontations with my father that should