Meandering Mind - Eva Dillner [55]
It is their fears and limitations. They have no business imposing them on you. However I believe we get these criticisms so we can get stronger in our resolve to be ourselves, to be true to ourselves. If we never encountered resistance we would not get strong. Resistance actually helps us grow.
I believe you are always more in tune with your Higher Self than anyone else can be. You know deep in your heart what is true. But with all the interference most of us get, we have long since quit trusting our own inner knowing.
So when my friends were ragging on me about relationships, they were really talking about their own beliefs.
Better late than never
A friend loaned me a book, because she wanted me to do a past life regression on her. She had read Sylvia Browne's Past Lives, Future Healing and wondered if I could use the script from the book? I had worked with my friend in the past, and she wanted someone there with her who wouldn't back off when the really good stuff came bubbling up. Nice recommendation. If you've read my other books, you already know how strongly I feel about poking around in someone else's psyche without proper training and experience.
I read the book with interest. The regression script was different than the ones I had learned in my hypnotherapy training and I liked Sylvia's approach even better. I wanted to test it for myself, so I made a recording of the script. By now I have done so much of this kind of work on myself that I feel safe in doing it on my own. If you are a beginner, get someone you really trust and who has appropriate experience to work with you. I would not recommend you do this on your own if you are a novice.
As I recorded the script, I noticed there were places where my voice choked up and I had to pause the tape. When I laid down to listen to it, the memories were clear and the emotions were strong. This method takes you straight to the source of your problems. The story that unfolded explained a whole lot that I had not been able to break through any other way.
The year was 1721, I was a young girl of seventeen named Anja, in Brussels. My hair was long, I was dressed in a white dress and wore a wreath on my head. I was with the man I loved, my intended, and I was pregnant with his child. We loved each other very much and were excited about our love child. When we went to tell my father of our plans to get married, all hell broke loose. My father in that life made sure to separate us and got my love sent off where we couldn't contact each other. My father lied and schemed to make sure we never saw each other again. He also made sure to brain wash me that the man I loved really hadn't loved me, it had all been in my head that he was at all interested in me. The child I carried died and I ended my days as a prostitute in Amsterdam.
It was to say the least a very powerful regression. The people in that life were people I know in this life. So much fell into place. So much healing is taking place.
The child I lost has been working with me from the other side to help me release the grief and loss. She explained why she opted out, less than a year old. She did it so I could be free of the father who hated me. Thank you Belinda!
I have been working through the pain of being betrayed by my father in that life. Realizing that he did not want what was best for me. He lied so well I lost touch with my own inner knowing. I've had a major issue in trusting my intuition and seeing people as they really are. Thank God I have now recovered that sense of inner knowing.
Another core issue I've been working on is abandonment, or fear of abandonment. In that life I thought my love abandoned me. He didn't. He was as powerless as I was in preventing the father from destroying our lives. What really touches my heart is that I have been able to reconnect with the love we felt for each other in that life.