Meandering Mind - Eva Dillner [60]
What makes you so intent on polluting my environment with your emotional baggage? Because that is what it is. It is emotional pollution and I am not having any more of it.
Whenever you find yourself having to share your opinion, insisting on giving advice, what is your motive? Tell me that. Why? I try not to impose my beliefs on you. I deserve the same respect. If you are afraid of stepping into your power, of sex, of fame, of fortune, whatever your fear is, please work it out. And don't try to make your fears and limitations mine. I won't buy them. You can't hold on to me by limiting me. I am free. You are free. Let go of your blocks. I'm letting go of mine.
It's time I quit thinking that you know more than I do. I have worked very hard on myself. I have come a long way. I know I don't have all the answers. But it's time that I quit assuming that it's me that has to change. That it's me that has to work through stuff. Just maybe it's you that has a problem and just maybe it's you that has a much deeper issue than I. It's time I quit letting people distract me and disturb and stop me from walking my divine path. So there!
Phew. That felt really good. I had no trouble at all letting the words flow. I needed to get all that off my chest. Which leads me to the next topic.
Turn it around
What if you turn it around? Let's look at some hypothetical examples. Let's say you get criticized over and over for being too meticulous. What if, instead of thinking you have to fix your problem, instead of thinking there is something wrong with being meticulous, you turned it around? Allowed yourself to think, this is right with me, being meticulous is my gift to the world.
What if you get ragged on about being a dreamer? You get told over and over to come down to earth and be realistic. If you turn it around, it becomes a gift instead of a burden. Instead of it being something wrong with you, it is what is right about you.
When others disapprove of your behavior, instead of thinking you have to change, let yourself turn it around. The behavior you are being chided for is perhaps what is right with you.
You are who you are. The way you were put together by God is how you were meant to be in order to fulfill your mission on earth. So let yourself stand tall with pride when the barrage comes. Know deep in your heart that what they are criticizing you for is what is right with you. Think about it, would Einstein have been able to achieve what he did if he had been “balanced?” So accept yourself as you are. All our skills and viewpoints are needed. God created us that way, so that there is a natural organization of skills and talents. Each and every one of us is needed.
Twenty-Three
Sacred space meditation
If you, like me, have worked on releasing emotions and projections ad nauseum, you may want some new tools. Here is a meditation exercise presented to me by my Higher Self to help sweep out the cobwebs of garbage in a different way.
Put out your do-not-disturb sign first, like turn off the phone, tell your housemates to leave you in peace and find yourself a private space. If your house is chaos, go sit in the car or go to the library. You can always find somewhere to be alone with yourself. I've meditated in bathrooms, in busy airports, on trains and once you get in the meditation habit you can do it anywhere. Use the outside distractions to take you deeper into yourself.
Now get yourself situated in meditation pose - sit up straight in a chair, on the floor in lotus position or lie down - whatever makes you comfortable. Then take a few deep breaths to center yourself, feel your body in the chair or against the floor. Ask your Higher Self to come in and help and be present with you during this exercise. Clarifying that you want help from your Higher Self keeps other astral helpers from showing up and mucking up the works.
Now take your attention