Meandering Mind - Eva Dillner [72]
When we can learn to let go and take action as directed by Spirit, we allow magic to flow in our lives. Practicing on the small decisions will help you to tackle the bigger ones. I signed the contract for the publication of this book before it was finished. I knew it was the right thing to do and the timing was given to me as well. A few weeks later I was guided to give notice on the house I am renting. I will be moving right after I send in this manuscript to the publisher. At this moment, I don't know where I am moving to, what I will be doing there nor any other details. I do know it will be revealed to me when the time is right. I am very calm and feel more settled after the decisions were made than before.
By letting go of my house, I create space for something new to come in. I was meant to write three books here, I think of them as the Paradise Trilogy. The next place will have new contacts and new challenges. I learned a long time ago that wherever Spirit sends you, you will make the connections you are meant to make and you will have the experiences you are meant to have. What you thought it was all about may not be it at all, but rest assured that in the long run your Higher Self loves you and wants you to grow.
So again the message is to let go and let God.
I have an inner sense of excitement and adventure. Where will I go next and explore? I feel alive with expectant possibilities. The other day a friend called and was reminiscing how it was when I arrived back in Sweden, how fun it had been to play tourist with me in Stockholm. I think the universe sends us these messages so we can remember our earlier successes and to remind us of the fun in not knowing where you are going.
I have been getting messages about moving for some time, but had been running into roadblocks. The universe was clearly messaging that the time wasn't right yet. Then one morning I woke up, clear as a bell, today I send in my notice on the house. When the decision has ripened, it's easy, and it all flows.
Difficulties
Writing this book is at times quite difficult. My life seems to either be intense activity followed by periods of sitting and staring into space. I suppose that is how it's meant to be at the moment.
I reflect on how the main subject matters in this book - organizations and relationships - are subjects I either know a lot about or have pondered a lot, yet while I am writing this book, the absence of both is making itself painfully known. Perhaps this is why it's so hard to write. I am reminded with every word of what I am missing.
Many of my friends have like me spent many years on our personal growth. We have talked about how ten or fifteen years ago we all had good jobs, owned our homes and had relationships. Now we have none of that and have dug deep into ourselves. What was the point of it all? At least some of us had the expectation that there would be a reward at the end of the rainbow.
Is there really a meaning to life? Is there really a purpose? I sense that I am doing important work, for myself and others. But why are so many of us doing so poorly economically and relationally? One friend finally got a job, after many years of unemployment, only to discover her new boss wanted her accounting skills for tax evasion purposes.
Another friend finally found a man, only to discover he was a psychopath. Quite a few of my women friends say they would just as soon live by themselves, they are so disappointed in the men they have met that it's simply not worth the bother. That feels depressing. There has got to be a point to it all.
At the same time I have small successes. Newspapers and