Meandering Mind - Eva Dillner [74]
Life is a treasure hunt
They say that most successful entrepreneurs have some really big failures behind them. It's not unusual for them to have a bankruptcy or some other big mess-up before the big success comes. I'm sure they would tell us they learned from the mistakes. We learn from our failures what didn't work. Maybe it would be appropriate to say that life is a crapshoot? Or was my friend right when she said life is a treasure hunt?
If you look at life like a treasure hunt, then you don't have to have the answers. You are on a mission of discovery. You can explore and make mistakes. The universe is ever changing and so are we. Looking at life like a treasure hunt allows you to keep learning, to try different things, to explore and keep a level of excitement about what you are doing.
I like that. When I can explore my subjects from a treasure hunt perspective, I stay alive in the process. Whenever I try to teach from a viewpoint of “this is how it is,” my writing goes static, because knowledge is not cast in stone. The moment I share an idea with you, it gets your grey cells churning, and you take off with an offshoot of my idea. So there is no static learning or knowledge. Knowledge is like fresh produce, it's not something that can sit on the shelf forever and stay the same.
Anytime you do one of my exercises, you add to the learning. You improve on what is already there. You make new discoveries. And that is how it should be. I would love to have your feedback in years to come from using the material in this book.
Thirty
Morning has broken
As I watch the sun come up over lake Wixen for the first time in months, bathing the sky with the sheer rose color of a an August dawn, with remnants of mists in between the trees, I feel the connection between signs in nature and my own process once again. This summer has been the rainiest in a hundred years, appropriate for spending time indoors completing this book.
The past life I had in Brussels three hundred years ago has been working its way through. Although the events happened a long time ago, the emotions are experienced as now until healed. It's been excruciatingly painful at times and difficult beyond belief as I reconnect with lost parts of myself.
I am extremely grateful to my friends who have put up with and helped me through these difficulties, for listening, offering advice and most of all for being there. Without this emotional support system I wouldn't have come through it nor been able to allow the material to surface and heal. My gratitude to my dear friends overflows with love and many heartfelt thanks.
Yesterday I first experienced a very fidgety energy, restless, wanting to do. As I centered myself to see what was percolating beneath the push for action I connected with a frustration. Letting myself soften into the feeling, focusing on the physical sensation in my solar plexus, more exactly the liver, tears arose and released. I felt anger, frustration and sadness all at the same time. That sorted, I went about my day.
Later on in the afternoon I sat, simply sat, and an incredibly deep sadness welled up from my sacral region. I reconnected with the love I felt for the man I lost in Brussels, and I reconnected with the love he felt for me. I was aware in every cell of my body how it felt to be loved and how much I had loved him. It was very powerful, to experience the positive aspects of love, to feel that deep connectedness. When I lost him, I felt as if I had lost myself, he was that much a part of me. On a soul level, that love will always be there. In my earth lives since, I have been disconnected from those feelings for nearly three hundred years, so you can imagine it was powerful. It is so sweet to reconnect to heart love that is connected to the physical and spiritual love.