Merrick - Anne Rice [139]
“Stop it, Louis, let me explain what’s happened—.”
“How the hell can you explain such a thing? Let me pour it out, man,” he said. “Let me confess that it all began when I laid eyes on her. You knew it. You saw it. You tried to warn me. But I had no idea that the feelings would become so very intense. I was certain I could control them. Good Lord, how many mortals have I resisted over these two centuries, how many times have I turned my back on some random soul who drew me so painfully that I had to weep?”
“Stop it, Louis, listen to me.”
“I won’t hurt her, David,” he said, “I swear it. I don’t want to hurt her. I can’t bear the thought of feeding from her as I once did from Claudia, oh, that awful awful mistake, the making of Claudia. I won’t hurt her, I swear it, but I must see her, I must be with her, I must hear her voice. David, can you get her out of Oak Haven? Can you make her meet with me? Can you make her stop her love affair with her rum and come to her old house? You must be able to do it. I tell you, I’m losing my mind.”
He had scarcely paused when I broke in and would not be silenced.
“She’s fixed you, Louis!” I declared. “It’s a spell. Now, you must be quiet and listen to me. I know her tricks. And I know magic. And hers is a magic as old as Egypt, as old as Rome and Greece. She’s fixed you, man, made you fall in love with her through witchcraft. Damn, I should have never let her keep that bloodstained dress. No wonder she wouldn’t let me touch it. It had your blood on it. Oh, what a fool I was not to see what she was doing. We even talked of such charms together. Oh, she is beyond all patience. I let her keep that bloodstained silk dress, and she’s used it to make an age-old charm.”
“No, that’s not possible,” he said caustically. “I simply won’t accept it. I love her, David. You force me to use the words that will hurt you most of all. I love her, and I want her; I want her company, I want the wisdom and the kindness that I saw in her. It’s no spell.”
“It is, man, believe me,” I said. “I know her and I know magic. She used your blood to do it. Don’t you see, this woman not only believes in magic, she understands it. Perhaps a million mortal magicians have lived and died during the past millennia, but how many of them were the genuine article? She knows what she’s doing! Your blood was in the weave of her own garment. She’s cast a spell on you that I don’t know how to break!”
He was silent but not for very long.
“I don’t believe you,” he said. “No, it can’t be true. I feel this too completely.”
“Think back, Louis, on what I told you of her, of the visions of her I had after our first contact only a few nights ago. You remember, I told you I saw her everywhere—.”
“This is not the same. I’m speaking of my heart, David—.”
“It is the same, man,” I insisted. “I saw her everywhere, and after we saw the vision of Claudia, Merrick admitted to me that those visions of her were part of a spell. I told you all this, Louis. I told you about her little altar in the hotel room, the way she’d gotten my handkerchief with my blood on it from the sweat of my brow. Louis, pay attention.”
“You’re vilifying her,” he said as gently as he could, “and I won’t have it. I don’t see her in that manner. I think of her