The Children's Book - A. S. Byatt [29]
Griselda said that her aunt’s fairy stories frightened her. So did Hans Andersen, he made her cry. But not this sort of tale. She didn’t know why. It should be scary, there was a lot of blood. Toby said these were memories of some other time, long ago, and he agreed, they weren’t scary.
“They are just like that,” said Griselda, feeling for what intrigued her, not finding it.
Toby looked at the serious thin face. He said he would send her a book of the Grimms, if she was allowed to receive it. Griselda said she didn’t think her family had anything against the Grimms. They just didn’t know about them. Toby wanted to stroke her hair, and say, don’t worry, but he didn’t think that was a good idea.
Everyone, old and young, now gathered for a kind of sumptuous picnic. As happens in such gatherings, where those whose lives are shaped, fortunately or unfortunately, are surrounded by those whose lives are almost entirely to come, the elders began asking the young what they meant to do with their lives, and to project futures for them.
They started, naturally, with the older boys. Prosper Cain said Julian had a fine eye for antiques, and could tell the real thing from a fake. He had a collection of valuables he had found in flea-markets, a mediaeval spoon, a very old Staffordshire slipware beaker. Julian said easily that after Cambridge he might indeed like to work in museums, or galleries. Seraphita Fludd said she hoped Geraint would be like his father, an artist, and make lovely things. Geraint said she knew really he was no good at that kind of thing. He was good at maths. An astronomer! cried Violet. Geraint said he should like to make a comfortable living. He smiled amiably. Basil said he should go into business, in that case. Like William Morris, said Arthur Dobbin, who hoped to introduce business practices in the artists’ workshops in Lydd. Geraint went on smiling, and eating jellied ham mould. Basil Wellwood said Geraint was welcome to join Charles in his family firm. Charles made a strangled noise, blushed, and was heard to mutter that that was yet to be decided. Etta Skinner said it was odd that nobody in this forward-looking community had asked any of the girls what they wanted to be. She hoped some of them had ambitions. Prosper Cain, simultaneously, asked Tom what he hoped to become. Tom had no idea. He told the truth.
“I don’t ever want to leave here. I want to go on being in the woods—out on the Downs—just being here—”
“And to be boy eternal,” said August Steyning, inevitably, with a theatrical hum. Olive said Tom had all the time in the world.
Leslie Skinner took up Etta’s point. He addressed Dorothy, almost pugnaciously.
“And you, young woman. What do you hope to be?”
“I am going to be a doctor,” said Dorothy.
Violet said that was the first that had been heard of that idea. It was indeed, the first time it had formed in Dorothy’s mind, and she had spoken spontaneously. Doctors and nurses was not a game they played. But she heard herself answer, and suddenly in her head there existed a grown-up Dorothy, a doctor. Not sweetly benign, but wielding a scalpel. Skinner said that was a fine ambition, though the way was hard still, and he hoped she would come to University College.
“But you must want to be married, Hejjog,” said Phyllis, using a nickname Dorothy disliked. “I do. I want a lovely wedding, and a house just like this, with a rose garden, and I want to bake bread, and wear lovely dresses, and have seven children …”
Phyllis knew she was pretty. She was always being told she was. The young Fludds,