The Last Victim_ A True-Life Journey Into the Mind of the Serial Killer - Jason Moss [44]
I would think the best way is show by example meaning your going to be the one catching and then they get the feeling that if its good enough for you they don’t feel embarrassed. But you have a perfect partner since you share the other things and he looks to you as his mentor. The other sensations will be letting him think he is controlling you while your doing the leading. The sensation also of taking not only oral but letting ride the back door. I have known some who got off in a wild way just having someone do them. But you have to feel out his thinking and if he is willing to experiment. If that is a green light the next move is being aggressor to show him that you were serious, or he will think it was just a joke. That age it will be a sweet load of adventure and way of trying new things and will draw you closer in a way.
He went on to describe in detail how I should sneak into Jarrod’s room at night and how I should handle any resistance I might encounter. He supplied some rationalizations I could use to justify this seduction—chief among them, that we were only masturbating together, giving each other pleasure. The part that fascinated me the most, though, was that, unwittingly, he was actually training me in the techniques he used to seduce and control his victims.
In Gacy’s intense tutoring sessions on how I could seduce my brother, he made it clear that these same strategies had been tested previously on very young boys. He gave me a rundown of every scenario that could possibly occur. He went into detail on how to respond to my brother—or anyone—who might get apprehensive about engaging in sexual acts. He described strategies for how to reassure no matter what the response. He had an answer for all occasions.
In his very next letter, he attempted to normalize this type of sexual relationship by maintaining that he had had a sexual relationship with his sister when they were children. To the best of my knowledge, this was the first time he’d actually claimed to sibling incest. While the following scenario could have been a fantasy, or at least an embellishment, I’m convinced that something emotional lay at the heart of it—maybe merely an unrequited sexual love for a person he couldn’t possess.
She and I were in separate rooms, but it never stopped us from having some pleasure. But while she was unsure about it, I had to be the aggressor making the late night trips. I would already be down to just my bikini briefs, and would slip into her room and just slide in.
Just as soon as she knew I was there I would tell her to be quiet. As I move my hand over her nipples, until they were hard, then I would move down rubbing her until she was getting wet and slipped my hand inside making her become aroused. Once that was done I would slip down and let my tongue do the work, until she got off at least once. I did this a couple of times without any return favor, just to show her it was safe. Later I would get her going and then move into a 69, and then it took off by itself after a couple times.
The amount of personal information that was now flowing from Gacy was immense. So far, our correspondence and phone conversations had yielded enough intriguing detail that I couldn’t help daydreaming about what might be gleaned from other serial killers.
If I could get to Gacy, what about Charles Manson, Richard Ramirez, Henry Lee Lucas, David Berkowitz, and Elmer Wayne Henley, Jr.? Or even Jeffrey Dahmer?
I was flying so high I believed anything was possible.
19
Joining a Family
Although I was swollen with overconfidence, I did feel a certain amount of anxiety reaching out to serial killers who struck me as even more diabolical than Gacy, if only because their behavior was more inscrutable. There was something about Gacy that seemed predictable. His neuroses were categorizable,