The Three Christs of Ypsilanti - Milton Rokeach [119]
“A buster squelch is one which can bust up immoral emotions.”
“I was sitting in the toilet sending out squelches to close up the cracks in the partitions between the toilets, so the person in the next toilet wouldn’t be affected.”
“I have set up a Positive Etcetera Squelch Fund so that any positive-idealed G. M. can use the Fund to enjoy sexual outlet.”
In the same vein, Leon talked about cosmic eye squelches in the middle of his forehead, spider squelches, hurricane squelches, and sparkler squelches. He asserted that David Niven gave him a squelch in his vagina, and that he could use squelches to kill people but was forbidden to do so.
And, of course, Leon had enough insight to know what he was really doing. Asked one day to explain his preoccupation with squelches, he replied: “I could go into personal things, but that would be agitational.”
Changes In Delusional Beliefs
During the time Leon was waging his lonely struggle, from November of 1960 to the following July, we observed many additional developments in his delusional system. These changes reflected in general the course of his struggle; the majority of them took place in February and March of 1961. Only the most important of these changes are noted here.
In December, I showed Leon some portions of his handwritten manuscript, Cause and Evolution. Leon repudiated it with the statement that it was the insanity of God which had prompted these writings.
Early in February, Leon announced he was a “morphodite.” This was in contrast to his earlier, emphatic insistence that he was only a male. It is in the innate nature of a “morphodite,” he added, to kill its parents and to “born itself.”
All this was quickly followed by a significant change in the way he signed his name to the Chairman List: Dr. R. I. Dung, Sir, P. M., G. M.—Potential Madame, God Morphodite.
Leon claimed he had just discovered his “femaleity.” “I have myself observed emotional feelings that are changing.” He conceived of himself as having breasts and a vagina which no one could see, not even himself, because they were covered up with “triangle-designed squelches.”
Associated with this conscious conception of himself as a hermaphrodite were Leon’s announcements during February that he was about to give birth to twins. He sobbed when discussing these twins, saying that he did not want them to suffer from impositions, as he did. But early in March the twins were dead. They were “morphodites,” Leon informed us; they had bled to death before birth.
Leon’s insistence that he was bisexual was followed by a change in his marital status. He announced that G. M. Ruth had gone the way of her predecessors, the Virgin Mary and Madame Yeti Woman, and was no longer his wife. Leon told us how she had met her end: “Ruth kicked me out of the truck and I was about ready to fall. I was lifted up by a power unseen, only felt, and the Ten Commandment Power Box appeared and killed G. M. Ruth.”
But Leon did not remain a bachelor for long. He immediately described his new marital condition. “I’m married to myself through the letter ‘o’ of the Ten Commandments.” When I asked how anyone could be married to himself, he replied: “I died the death while my femaleity was having sexual intercourse with my maleity, compounded-compounded. There was a female seed and a male seed and the female seed died, yet through dying the death in such a manner the female body did not depart. The letter ‘o’ in the Ten Commandments is the marriage ring between me as a foster brother and my foster sister. My foster sister is my wife now.” And, turning to Miss Anderson, he added: “The chair is open to the person who speaks the truth.”
I asked Leon how he could be sure that his femaleity was there, since he could not see it. Leon answered emphatically: “Truth is self-evident—something that I don’t see