Yesterday, I Cried_ Celebrating the Lessons of Living and Loving - Iyanla Vanzant [104]
I acknowledge that when I have been consciously aware that my actions were not in my best interest, I chose, in response to the fear I experienced, to continue the course of action. I forgive myself for choosing in response to fear.
I acknowledge that I have been an active, although unconscious, participant in the creation of pain and discomfort in my life and the lives of others. I forgive myself for unconscious participation in the creation of pain and discomfort for myself and others.
I acknowledge that there are occasions on which I have been an active and conscious participant in the creation of pain and discomfort in my life and in the lives of others. I forgive myself for conscious participation in the creation of pain and discomfort for myself and for others.
I acknowledge that I have made conscious choices and decisions being aware that the decision or the choice was not in my own best interest, but in pursuit of monetary gain or reward. I forgive myself for placing the value of money before my best interest.
I acknowledge that when I experience fear, I do not tell the truth. I forgive myself for not telling the truth under all circumstances.
I acknowledge that I have allowed myself to believe things about myself that are not true. I forgive myself for believing things about myself that are not true.
I acknowledge that I have been angry with myself for not being able to change my behavior. I forgive myself for being angry with myself.
I acknowledge that I have been angry with others and held them responsible for my inability to change myself. I forgive myself for being angry with others. I forgive myself for holding others responsible for my actions and my life.
I acknowledge that I am a child of God. I acknowledge that I am valuable, worthy, and lovable. I acknowledge that God is the source and the center of my life. I acknowledge that only God can change the false beliefs I have held about myself. I acknowledge that my acknowledgment of God can and will heal the wounds I have experienced as a result of false beliefs, fear-based choices and decisions, anger-based choices and decisions, and ignorance of God’s sovereignty in my life. I forgive myself totally and unconditionally. I now ask the Holy Spirit of God to heal my wounds, to eliminate all false beliefs I have held, and to open my heart to true unconditional love.
For all I have received and all that is about to come, I am so grateful!
It was so clear—all of the wrong lessons that Rhonda had learned, and how they had influenced her life. All of the crap she had held onto and believed and acted upon because she did not know any better. I understood how her patterns, the patterns that had been etched into Rhonda’s consciousness, had become a part of my life. I also realized that until I acknowledged those patterns, until I could see them and accept them, there would be no way I could heal them. And until I healed them, I would continue to experience their effect on my life, consciously and unconsciously.
I wondered to myself if what I had discovered was true for everyone. I wondered how many people walk around totally unaware that there is another person, another level in their being, that is in total conflict with the ever-emerging newness unfolding through their consciousness. How many people realize that there is an “old you” that has never forgotten? The old you has made choices and judgments of which the “new you” may be totally unaware.
The old you is still afraid of things that the new you has long forgotten or never remembered. The old you has attachments based upon survival needs and fear, while the new you is courageously trying to break free and grow. The old you has found a comfortable place, a way of being, a safe place, and will fight to stay within that comfort zone. The new you recognizes the need to take risks, to move beyond the familiar, and is willing to do so. When the